I’m wishing

I wish “I Love You” would be enough. Not the words of course, anyone can say them. I wish MY love would be enough. For you and me. forever. I wish your love for me would fulfill all the requirements that forever desires. We love each other deeply, I wish that were enough.

So many souls are wandering alone without a friend to hold. So many people have made the commitment to spend eternity together. So many have said “our love is enough” and foolishly rushed into mediocrity. But I love you isn’t enough. And you love me isn’t enough. And all the nights we spend falling asleep together laughing peacefully in each other’s arms…and yes, all the peaceful moments that we share….the way you relax my anxious mind and allow me to be…the way you silently caress the back of my neck while accidentally missing your turn…the way we keep on driving and singing or talking or in silence…it…isn’t…
Why isn’t our love enough? Why can’t it be guaranteed? Why?

Lighting just struck outside the window of this plane that I am on. And lighting strikes remind me of how people fall in love. Quickly. With a flash. And often followed by loud rumblings. A moment of perfection in a time of desperate need. Bright lights shooting through the soul. Electric connections buzzing in every inch of your body. A storm of emotions drawing two people together. Protecting each other until the storm passes.

Followed by quiet…

But we didn’t flash. We didn’t find love in the lights we found each other in the slow. Walking. Drinking tea. Daily texts. That’s the love that lasts. That’s how we know we can be forever. That’s how…

Life dictates what lasts forever as love stands right behind. So I can hold your hand in Ohio and I can long for you deeply from Oregon and still life whispers in my ear, “distance”.

Life give us please, that chance. Let us prove ourselves.. to ourselves… and find fulfillment in forever. Don’t take her away. Further than she is.

I wish our love was enough. I’m hoping life gives us a chance.

I’m wishing

One thought on “I’m wishing

  1. Love the post.

    Of everything that I process in his betrayal, I also feel that she would not have come in, if the bond between us was too strong to be ravaged. She came in, because of the gap that was.

    I miss the emotional intimacy. I read their chat transcripts, and whatever else I could get my ears on from the beginning of their mutual mating dance. And yes, there was a current that flowed between them long before she landed in our home. I know that there are people who have their socks knocked off by love.

    I hate that my husband has tasted what that sock-knocking feels like. I, on the other hand, am so dented that I am just trying to keep myself whole and not fall apart. Love as a feeling, is so written off for me, and I am done thinking of it.

    Then the rigours of real life kick in….a full time job, children, house. I can’t match the thrill of being single. Yep, you are correct….

    You know what, I hope you do get that chance.

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